Im not ready for a relationship, and im not wanting one right now. Im being considerate because i know i wont have as much time to spent with my girl. That's not fair right. And for you, i dont mind if we just stay as friends, because you're so special i dont wanna lose you if the relationship doesn't work out. All i want is to know that you love me. But right now i'll just keep everything to myself cause i know you'll just push me away further if i come any closer. I dont know what you're feeling right now but a few weeks back, to you, you and me was just a holiday fling. Thank you for doing this twice
-- 7:34 PM
"And i said, your eyes
Are the brightest of all colours
I don't wanna ever love another
You'll always be my thunder
So bring on the rain"
-- 6:35 PM
Don't make me feel this way. I just can't help it. I need you right now. I need to sit close to you.. I need to see your smile. I need to hear your laughter. Everything about you makes me feel weak but i love you still. I do not want a relationship. Cause im not ready for anything. But i believe, when it comes, it comes.
-- 6:15 PM
Tomorrow i want to go to the gym. I HOPE SO! I realized how small i've become. Marlyna said i went from sapau to kueh pao! Epain says im from something to an ordinary guy. Fuck it! I want to start back. A minority of you would know what happened to my body, i abused my body day and night :( Previously i was training so i can fit L size shirt. Now im aiming for XL shirt! Imagine how big im gonna be. The time has come.
-- 1:59 PM
The scar on my forehead means everything to me. I hope it wont heal and last forever. But nothing lasts forever :(
-- 7:33 PM
My heart is still open for you and i just realised i havent moved on. I thought i did. Those memories from 2008 is always have been running thru my mind. And the best part is i found old neoprints of us. Bittersweet memories. But its impossible for me to not have move on. It has been 2 years since you left me. Maybe your love made a huge impact in my life till the feeling wont go. But ohwell, maybe a summer fling will always be a summer fling
-- 6:01 PM
Okay im sick and tired of living in the night. It's like a nightmare actually. I dont really get to see the sun quite often. I dont get to see people. Im always at home since there's nothing much to do at night. What my friend said was true, nightlife is not that great. Aku degil sangat nak try, amek kau..
-- 7:44 PM