Almost had an accident. ALMOST. What a close call. ALMOST went head on with a car. The few seconds which makes a difference about my future.
-- 3:35 PM
Don't think im gonna update this blog for quite awhile. Cause now it's the 'work is enjoyable' phase. And my life's not gonna be interesting anymore cause im gonna eat work live work and breathe work. There's nothing special in my life anymore hahaha. But i'll be back a different and stronger guy. Maybe the next time you see me, im gonna be somebody interesting?
Aisyah, im not perfect, i seriously dont know how can this happen. I dont know why we fought cause i was half asleep when i said that to you. Im not perfect, im human, i make mistakes. I'll learn from my mistakes, dont ever text you when im half asleep. Well that is if we're still talking. I'll take this as a test. I wanna know if 6 months or maybe 1 year from now i still have deep feelings for you. Well if i still do then to me this is love, not just a crush. Cause we're not gonna be seeing or talking to each other for a long period. Other than that, im just gonna go on with life. And i blame myself fully for all that happened. Sorry
-- 3:44 PM
-- 8:24 PM
Am i on a drinking streak? Cmon Nabil you promised your parents you won't drink once you got a bike, you promised her. But technically she doesn't care anymore, so the promise is voided. Mum said, if i don't heed dad's advice, i won't be holding on to my license and bike for long :( I really wanna stop drinking, i have too much sins. But i can't help it. Now when friends suggest clubs and drinking i'll automatically accept. Maybe cause when im high it will ease the pain? Or i'll dare to text you but still won't dare to read your replies, so i asked you not to.
Maybe we're just in the beginning of a classic love story. The way you speak, the way you laugh, everything, i feel like you deserve someone better. Not a low life like me who can't support you in the future. Someone who's as clever as you are so he would understand what your saying and not like me, who needs you to explain a million times. You deserve to be happy. I wanna talk to you, but i don't know how to. Maybe a bottle of whiskey might help?
-- 1:39 PM
Sad to say, i watch my baby fall on its own in slow motion. You wouldnt understand what i felt. And the worse thing is my bike fell infront of everybody, my friends, and im outside the coffeeshop.. Everyone turned to see how my baby fell. My heart almost stopped.. Haiz.. 3 scratches, 1 small dent on the tank and my brake lever dented. :( Sundays are boring. Im a soulless dude today, only my bike to accompany me. Only my laptop to accompany me. What a loser. I guess my life's gonna be like this forever. It feels like a part of me is gone, well it actually is gone. the best cure? time...
-- 9:23 PM
By now you all would have known that i got my license and bought a bike. Let me introduce to you my princess. I met her on 21st of may and fell in love with her. Im officially not gay, sorry to disappoint you.
Okay i hate her wheels too, gonna change it tomorrow. Gonna modify this sexy bike! Im getting the hang of riding on the roads and highway. But, no matter how experienced you are, anything can happen, and any day can be your last day. So i quit drinking, trying to stop all the bad stuff. Cause i dont wanna die with alcohol in my system. Im trying to live everyday to the fullest.
Yes i miss you, but im egoistic. Too bad.
-- 7:14 PM
Just got back from work. I brought back a 3L Cordon Bleu bottle thanks to the best supervisor ever TAUFIQ PELACUR! HAHAHA! Dude if whenever you give me a hard time at work, then i guess you've already read this.
I'm either gonna fill the bottle with $1 OR 50cent coins. Which is easier? Which will look nicer? Timothy's $1 collection in the Cordon Bleu bottle is like 2k plus! How long can i collect that much coins?! But in my evil mind, i have a plan to keep all the $1 coins in Singapore, till there's none left in the banks. Haha so not possible!
Work is getting better and am enjoying it. But im so fucking tired i dont have enough sleep. The worst part is, its gonna be a fucking long week. School then straight go work, almost everyday. Im gonna die of exhaustion! And getting 5 hours of sleep is rare right now. Speaking bout school, i just recieved my 2nd warning letter. Degil siol aku hahaha! This means i have to go school everyday and not fool around anymore.. Okay fuck why is my font getting smaller and smaller. I fucking hate blogger right now.
